Hello old friend. I know that you probably hate me and I am cool with that. I wish I could tell you this in person, however I can’t. Recent events have put things into perspective for me. My time is slowly running out and I am now trying to correct all the wrongs that younger and more stupid version of me created.
The last three years have been hard for me. You have no idea how many times I wanted to reach out to you for comfort—however, I had to wade through a large amount of lies people I thought were friends and mentors told me. It made me choose to resign from my job because of it all just so I could have space to clear my head and think things over.
I just wanted to say that I did love you even though you feel like you wasted time on me. I wanted to marry you at one point, Teal eyed Dartmouth girl. Hell, I had visions of growing old with you. Now that is over, I can no longer cling to that. I know that you moved on with your life. I just wanted to get this out of my system fully. I truly miss you more than you could ever imagine but it is time that I moved on in life also. Goodbye, Teal eyed Dartmouth girl. Have a good life.