I fucking hate the weather in this city. I hate how much everything costs. I hate how I want everything and nothing at the same time. I hate pretending I am happy. I hate the fact that my love life is non-existent. I hate the fact that I cannot for the life of me find a minimum wage job. I hate the white guy in the gym who thinks he’s the shit. I hate how much money I waste. I own things people dream about, but it couldn’t put a smile on my face for anything. I hate how I am never acknowledged for anything I do. I hate living so far from my family, but what I hate more is knowing that I chose to. I hate how much rent costs. I hate how much my monthly cable/wireless/phone bill is. I hate paying five dollars for a macchiato every day when it only satisfies me for three short minutes. I hate not knowing what to do or what I want in life, because I thought I had it all figured out. I hate feeling lonely every day but at the same time I find peace with it. I hate lying to myself and to everyone else. I hate that memories of the past continue to hold me back day in and day out, but I can’t seem to let them go. I hate how I have to write things I hate about because I know in my heart how fortunate I am to have the things I have and to have seen the places I have seen, but a piece of my heart is missing and I don’t know where to find it. —Empty
This article appears in Jan 19-25, 2012.
Halifax isn’t easy in the winter. What with the constant overcast skies, the soggy boots, the wind blowing hard off the ocean … it can be really miserable. We all feel it to some degree … and that’s part of the reason we have such kiss-ass kitchen parties.
Cheer up, mate. We’re riding our toboggans on the downhill slope to spring now.
Please, stay away from the MacDonald bridge …. just sayin;
Hope things get better OP. It’s true spring’s coming but from January it looks soooo far away. It sucks how every year I think of April as being “spring” when in reality, spring drags on forever here and it’s pretty much three more months to summer. I wish I could fly somewhere tropical…even just for a weekend.
I want to live on a tropical island when I’m older, live for dirt cheap and fuck tourists. I’d also drive a motorbike, one of those little cheap ones that European teenagers drive.
One of The Grenadines. That’s all one needs.
You mean a Vespa, Tommy? 😛
no… It’s not a scooter, but not really a motorbike either. I’ve never seen one in North America. I’m trying to find a picture, in the meantime check this out. Pretty bad ass:
http://img.dailymail.co.uk/i/pix/2008/05_0…
They’re called a “mobilette” in french, not sure what the english translation or equivalent would be.
http://www.toutypasse.be/photo2-a-vendre-m…
The noise they make is awesome lol, kinda like a dirtbike but whinier, almost like a whipper snipper.
Looks like a moped without the pedals.
B12 and a SAD lamp. And a spliff. And some cheese doodles. And Borat. And some exercise.
Fix ya right up.
I’ve never been particularly captivated by motorcycles, but one of these:
http://www.kettenkrad.com/Kettenkrad.gif
would be BITCHIN’!
haha almost sounds like something i would write, minus a couple lines.
as other will nno doubt say, that you are welcome to move someplace else. so, with the flow i will go, see ya……..
Oh my, a lot of “hate” in that bitch. Must have originated from North Preston.
Run down the street naked screaming at the top of your lungs. Fixes me up every time.
I went to the Dominican about a year ago and haven’t been able to shake the yearning to go back there and live in a tent and live off pineapple. Siiiiiiigh.
Snubiz nailed it.
So…to sum it up: you hate a bunch of things?
No offense, but this just came off as a really whiny, needy first world problem-y bitch.
Noone’s going to change your life but YOU, OP. Good luck in wherever you choose to start.
AWWW OP this is so sweet, honest and touching. I liked it. It willget better, I know you are frustrated and stressed right now. When you are done doing what you need be doing here you will leave. Try to use your time in Halifax to better yourself as much as possible. Try the shambala centre, maybe some meditation? I know that sounds silly, but I think you make something out of the situation you are in. It wont be easy but you can, and you will figure out what you want to do or be, just get out in there in world. Keep your head up, Ive been where you are, and I stilll go back there on some days lol. Theres people who feel just like you. Stay strong and focused, and dont let things shake you.