You’re an asshole. You make me stand in front of the mirror as you tell me how fat and ugly I am. You guilt me into starving and then push me to eat and eat until I’m so full I’m doubled over in pain. You chain me to a treadmill for hours until you think I’ve done enough, but we both know it’s never enough. It’s never been enough. You’ve had me fat, you’ve had me thin and everywhere in between and still you torment me. You’ve starved me to skin and bones just to fatten me up like a pig for slaughter. Some days I wish you would just go away and die, but you’re just killing me slowly instead. Fuck You, Ed. We both know I’ll never be good enough for you. —Chasing Cookies with Celery Sticks
This article appears in Dec 15-21, 2011.
you need a Caribbean mother to slap the ED right out of you.
… but seriously though, this is sad. Seek (more) help?
yes, what donkey said but you really shouldn’t come here. we are not qualified to help you, well maybe a couple of us are. you need serious help if you want to get better
What the fuck?! OP… get out of there as soon as you can, you don’t need or deserve this kind of treatment.
Erectile dysfunction does that!?
the op is referring to eating disorder
uh…
I’m sorry OP.. because i’m sure this really sucks. It’s also very attention seeking and makes me feel awkward.. but seeing as this is a bitch board, i guess it’s your complete right to bitch about whatever you want. I’d get some help OP. You’re clearly very young and very insecure and looking too much for approval from other people who, trust me, don’t give a shit if you live up to their expectations or not.
I would suggest however.. if you’ve got secrets you WANT to tell people then why not drop the pretense about wanting to keep it all secret and just go get help instead of writing fatalistic bitches about something that can absolutely be treated.
You know what i’m saying? I think you do…
And sorry OP. But i have too much respect for your situation to pepper you with falsehoods. Honesty is not always pretty. But it’s honest.
Sounds like Ed has some serious control issues. Run and get the help you need OP. Your worth more and it sounds like you are too good for him on many levels. Run, Run & Run
“I’m sorry that good-looking people like us made you throw up and feel bad about yourself. “
can you fuckfaces not read, she is not talking about a person named ed…sorry zed gets it
I totally didn’t get it until you said the above PG. 🙂
Eating Disorder…get it now.
Hope she does get the help she needs.
I guess people don’t like zoolander that much…
fuckfaces was harsh, sorry, i guess it’s comprehension not just reading. i gave you a thumbs up zed, i like zoolander
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lol I didn’t catch this at first either.. glad its not what I thought, but still, get help OP, and don’t feel bad or ashamed, we all have something wrong with us. In this day and age eating disorders are common what with the abundance of cheap and easily available unhealthy food, and the general attitude that it’s ok to eat like shit combined with fucked up self image perpetuated by the media. On one hand they tell you “look like this” but on the other it’s “eat like this” and you generally can’t do both. Ever notice how there’s no obese people in McDs or KFC commercials?
You’re worth the effort it’s gonna take to get better. All the best.
What Young Thomas said, %100.
Good luck, OB. You *are* worth it.
Wpaul
okay o.p., step away from the goodies, and keep your hands where we can see them.do not make any sudden moves.
I had to read this again, I too thought it was erectile dysfunction.
I am not qualified to give any other advice other than find someone who is qualified to give advice.
Psst, he prefers not to be called Thomas.
OP, look around you. You aren’t the only one suffering from ED. You should try to look on the bright side, at least you don’t have a smelly foot fetish.
lol no it’s ok! In real life I’ll take Thomas over Tommy any day, but you guys can call me whatever you want.. we cool like that.
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Hey OP have you tried a support group? It might help and it certainly can’t hurt.
http://www.thecoast.ca/halifax/overeaters-…
Tommy can you hear me?
I don’t know what’s more pathetic.
The Fashion & Movie Industry’s pushing a one size fits all body type, shape, weight.
OR YOUR UGLY & NO ONE CAN EVER FIND YOU ATTRACTIVE.
Or those who take what these bozo’s put forward as gospel to heart & believe nothing else !
The gulllibility of the masses frightens me when I stop & really think about it some times…Its no wonder religions can thrive !
Can you feel me near you?
Tommy can you see me?
I feel your pain. I’ve been dealing with ED for almost 25 years. Just when I feel I have it whipped, it comes back, sneaky and in disguise. It’s a constant push pull. Binge, restrict. It’s horrible.
lol you guys are crazy.
The absolutely hellish thing about EDs is that you can’t just give up food like you can cigarettes, alcohol, gambling, etc… — you NEED food to live. It’s A LOT harder to whip a disorder when you HAVE to have it in your life and you can’t just stay the fuck away from it. I mean, one cigarette or one drink can send a former smoker or alcoholic back into their addiction….
They’ll hear this, Tommy:
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Merry Christmas
hmmmm….
since alcohol is technically under the category of Food and Drink…
I guess I have an ED too…
Damn, never knew that until just this moment.
Well you ARE a little chunky-lookin’, Zed.
lol and a Merry Christmas to you too, Colonel.
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I may not be ‘chiseled’ or ‘cut’ (never have… I’d need to be 5% bodyfat cause every molecule of fat hits my god damn torso)..
I haven’t really ‘accumulated that much mass’ but you see ‘chunky’… I see ‘fat fucking blob’.
depression is a cruel mistress.
alcoholism is a whore… an expensive whore too…
and holidays are good for neither.
at least I’m not a ‘mad’ drunk though.
I keeps ma hands to ma self
It’s ok. http://verydemotivational.files.wordpress.…
i have never met a bull dog i didn’t like
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Can I help to cheer you?
I love you OP!! What a wake up! Thanks for saying what a lot of us think daily about our own selves. Since I was 13, I have been on this track too. Eat like a pig, feel guilty, then eat like a bird, get so hungry ,eat like a pig. Then Repeat. Why must we do this to ourselves? Why is it so hard to treat our bodies with love and respect? Yes, maybe the media has a lot to do with it. 99% of celebrities and models are rail thin. Even the men have to have six packs. How in the hell does a real person get a six pack anyway? The only way I know how to get one, is to go to the liquor store. Anyway, the only advice I have, is common sense and cliche. Love yourself. Eat 3 meals a day. Go for a half hour walk every day. Hey holdthephone- I think I’m going to take my own advice and try this! It might just work as my new years resolutions! Good luck to you sweetie. I’m giving Ed a kick in the pants for ya this year! I hope you do the same 🙂
Me thinks the OP is named Ed. Ed weight lose is a SLOW painless process that takes TIME. Relax, find something you like to do then do it.