I haven’t felt like this in awhile, but I recognized the feeling when it hit me. That feeling of “I hate everyone and everything” for no real reason. I try to ignore it but it weighs on me. I don’t like it, but I’ve been in a weird mood that’s fueled by it. It’s like something is missing from my life but I can’t figure out what it is. I’m independent and I love my freedom, but lately am miserable. I’ve also been half assing school assignments and staying in on weekends. It’s not what I’m used to but it’s become routine now. I don’t intend on changing, nor do I see anything ahead that would make me want to. I don’t know what I want. I don’t know what will make me happy. A person? New shoes? A long apology? More weed? Chocolate? Lately the only true happiness I find is running, spending money and listening to music. I think I think too much. I’m confused. I’m not as happy as I could be and it sucks because I used to be. Wish I could build a time machine. —Diced Pineapples
This article appears in Oct 18-24, 2012.
keep up the running and music but stop spending money, and get a pet
All good advice. I’d also advise cutting back a little on the weed (probably why your brain is stuck in a niche), finding at least one person to spend time with (doesn’t matter who, as long as you enjoy their company), getting school work done ahead of schedule (the accomplishment is a confidence booster and well as a stress reliever), and going out on the weekends (not partying, but somewhere outside your house or usual haunts). Don’t worry about anyone else besides yourself for now. All you have to worry about is getting motivated! (which is pretty hard sometimes, I don’t mean to trivialize any of your problems). People tend to get depressed, and sometimes the cure is just realizing that you’re surrounded by assholes 🙂
And yea, get a pet.
“More weed?”
ding ding ding!
Always helps when you really have no desires or ambitions.
It makes the mundane extraordinary and masks complacency with contentment.
“I think I think too much. I’m confused.” Diced Pineapples
It is never a question of thinking “too much.” What can the assertion possibly mean?
What you must do is start studying Philosophy – particularly Epistemology- that part of Philosophy concerned with the nature of knowledge and its acquisition, i.e., thinking. Of what does concept formation consist? What does one do when one thinks? These are questions which must be resolved before one can coherently assert that one “thinks too much.”
A pleasure as always.
Cheerio!
did i write this bitch? fuck that’s how i feel lately.
I think a lot of people feel that way around this time of year. Summer ending, fall beginning, snow just around the corner…. I wouldn’t do a thing different except maybe cut down or cut out the weed. Like the old saying goes, ‘this Too Shall Pass’!
o.p., when i get that feeling, i run my hands over my gun and weapon collection, makes me feel a lot better. just knowing that i could wipe out the best part of certain areas in a couple of hours.
people will say this is nuts, maybe so, but hey, it works and no one gets hurt, for now, anyway.
and o.p., if you are a female, come see me. i’ll put you in a very happy place for a few hours. it might even cheer me up too. your call.
Don’t be hatin on herbal remedies. Perhaps, OB, you need to get a prescription for Ativan, or some other highly adictive pharmaceutical miracle. Let your doctor sell your health and welfare, for a “free” trip to the Carribean. Let’s hear it for government endorsed drug dealers!!
Welcome to adulthood, OB. How about that stinging slap of reality? Telling you that you better get used to mediocrity, unless you are in the top percentage of the population, cause you will be endentured into a life of servitude to the bank, and saving for a retirement that may never come!
Great advice there Captain! The only thing I might add OP is doing something radically different like taking a self defense course or eating more fresh fruit.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=piWCBOsJr-w
Some well played Monty Python, Troodon! Guaranteed to cure any depression
Seek help op. You took a baby step by anonymously admitting you’re sad and frustrated to all of us and thats a start but aside from moman who may well be a psychologist we aren’t able to help.
You might have adult ADD, you might be depressed, could be a hormone imbalance or any number if things. Keep doing what makes you happy. Try to only smoke in evenings and eat your chocolate first so you don’t overdo it with the munches 😉 A pet may or may not be the answer, if the companionship is appealing go for it but sometimes when you feel a bit of a mess you don’t need the added responsibility of another living thing depending on you (I have kids I know).
All in all, if you’ve got a case of the sads it’s best to hash it out with someone qualified to help you get back where you want to be. I sincerely hope you feel better soon 🙂
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: madeinthe80’s (10/24, 1:53PM)
A philosopher perhaps but never a psychologist. As a matter of fact I have always thought psychology was essentially vacuous. In its attempt to explain everything, it explains nothing.
Take the case of “Diced Pineapples.” What would a psychologist have to say? I suspect he would say that Diced Pineapples was slightly depressed. But what does it mean to be “depressed?” Well, read his bitch over again. He claims that he “hates everyone and everything for no real reason,” he feels that “something is missing from his life but he can’t figure out what it is,” he complains that he “doesn’t intend on changing, nor does he see anything ahead that would make him want to,” he “doesn’t know what will make him happy,” etc. etc. But what does all that mean? It means that he is slightly depressed.
Have a nice day.
A pleasure as always.
Cheerio!
Don’t just get a pet on a whim, jeeze guys. Not everyone has a lifestyle that allows for that.
I think the key is to set some goals, try to accomplish things, start really small, and do it BEFORE you get high.
and don’t spend money. unless you have unlimited funds, it’s a temporary pleasure, soon followed by anxiety about shortfalls for rent/bus passes/food/hydro.
OP, sounds like you have cyclical depression if this is a familiar feeling for you. running is good, any exercise is good. junk food bad. again, temporary pleasure followed by a long drop.
i wouldn’t recommend a pet either. if you already had a pet, they help. but it’s not something to go out and acquire at this time.
book an appt with a dr and describe the symptoms. get a second opinion if you don’t feel good about what they say. consider very carefully before accepting any kind of anti depressant prescription.
free advice on a comment forum is worth what you pay for it, but if you have been through this before, keep that in mind. it will pass. it will pass.
Good point, Good Dog. If you do have clinical depression, think long and hard before taking any medication at all. Anti-depressants are tricky, it’s difficult to figure out exact dosages and the exact drug for each individual patient. This is because of the different mental states of individuals when dealing with depression. It, like many other mental illnesses, is usually unique in some way to each person. Sometimes medication can exasperate a problem or cause unforeseen side effects, or they could work wonderfully! Sometimes it can be a toss up tho
I’d advise trying some more natural approaches first. Many have already been stated; running, taking care of yourself, self motivation, small accomplishments, less weed, and of course a healthy dose of Monty Python.
i have a hard time accepting that not everyone pees their pants watching python, but it is so. OP, any comedy that gets your funny bone. watch/read as much of it as you can. maybe the LOL cats cheezeburger things. dog shaming. just avoid anything sad or upsetting. if you can force laughter to come up, it can be like an endorphin kick start. depression is brain chemicals gone awry, synapses misfiring, and not a moral shortcoming. or weakness. if you can kick start the brain by bombarding it with stuff that will make you laugh/smile, you may be able to get the engine going again. it may take a bit, and you may feel reluctant to sit in front of a comedy when you feel like crap but giver it a try. can’t hurt. i would avoid sad stuff, unless you feel a good cry would clean you out and refresh you. but i don’t think thats the case here. (my poison for a ‘good cry’ is Tosca. )
“…my poison for a ‘good cry’ is Tosca.”
Really? Mine’s punching myself in the nuts.
^^^ sounds like more of a ‘good scream’ than a ‘good cry’ but whatever gets your jollies there Cap.
i gave ya a ‘like’ for stoicism. hee hee hee
OP
Go to a climbing Gym. Preferably with a date or friend. trust me.There’s one in Burnside.