I wake up each morning and go to sleep each night wondering if I’m ever going to be able to get over all the hell you put me through. It’s been almost a year since I walked away from you (Hallelujah), but I haven’t gone a day without wondering how I made it out alive. I can’t seem to shake the abuse, the names you called me, the physical and emotional pain still haunts me and I’m LITERALLY scarred because of your ignorance and bullshit. I hate you. I hate what you did to me and most of all, I hate the fact that you refuse to open your eyes, take responsibility and see the severity of what you put me through. I’m not a victim, or a “princess”. I’ve been through a lot and it irks me that you are such a piece of shit. Seriously, a huge shitbag. God help your new girlfriend if you have one. I suffer every single day, and you move on with no issues, with arrogance. I can proudly say that I am over YOU. I can’t wait until I can say I’m over everything you did to me. —D
This article appears in Jun 20-26, 2013.
Over him?
If you’re still feeling this fucked up after a year, you’re not over anything.
I recommend asking someone to get some help. It’s not safe to drive looking in the rearview mirror. You’re going to hit something.
Get some professional help, OP, to free yourself from this horrible mental burden. You need to purge this anger instead of hanging on to it for a year. You are doing more damage to yourself than the dick you left behind.
yeah didn’t someone say once that anger and revenge are like drinking poison and expecting the other person to die?
That’s what you’re doing. I’m fairly certain your ex-person has learned nothing and is out there living it up while you’re festering away in misery. So if he really is the eater of worlds you describe, he’s successfully consumed another one. He won. Again. Why would you want him to have that satisfaction? Your hurt and anger doesn’t mean a flying fuck to him. Unless he’s really evil. Then it’s just amusing.
Time to really just let that shit go. It’s not that hard if you decide it’s time. And I think it’s time. Don’t you?
“yeah didn’t someone say once that anger and revenge are like drinking poison and expecting the other person to die?”
I think it was Buddha who said that…I have the a copy on my desktop as a screensaver. Love it. 🙂
The fact that you admit that you hate the festering bag of shit is a great step step forward in my opinion. You’re not adding that syrupy “but part of me still loves you” bullshit.You know the person’s not out of the woods when they add that.
This is a good forum to vent such things because people like this man do a lot of harm emotionally. Next step, erase his existence from your mind and start focussing on you and the things you love.
Reg Great advice.Your a wise man.
Alligator tears cried over you.
Over you. Over you.
You say, “I’m not a victim…” and from the other corner of your mouth you say, “I can’t wait until I can say I’m over everything you did to me.”
Which is it?