Love is the real drug, the most wonderfully dangerous substance I have ever used, the god damn cadillac of internal chemistry. I often ask God why didn’t he spare me from the suffering and give me a lesser sentence like heroin addiction, at least you can find that shit on the street for rendered services or whatever amount of crumpled up coke straws that goes for. “Hello my name is #$%!” I first stared using Love in high school, her name was Jenny. Those first words “I Love You” flowed out of her luscious lips into my ears and into my heart on that starry summer night at her cottage where she tackled me on a gravel road just to tell me. We lay there staring up at all those burning little specks not giving a shit if we got run over because that was the best things could get. That was many disposable relationships, many online dates and many bottles of wine ago. Now I sit here in Lovers Anonymous wondering when I am going to relapse. —WFNVD
This article appears in Feb 24 – Mar 2, 2011.
♪ Whoa, you like to think that you’re immune to the stuff, oh yeah
It’s closer to the truth to say you can’t get enough
You know you’re gonna have to face it, you’re addicted to love ♪
I often wanted to be run over by a car. I was so ready to die as if it were as good as it could get.
Since then, that was many bottles of wine ago.
“I often ask God why didn’t he spare me from the suffering and give me a lesser sentence like heroin addiction”….did I really just read that??? Listen here you Fucken twit! You know nothing about addiction!! You know nothing about the kind of pain you would feel trying to get off heroin and the amount of other substances it takes your body to try and wean off that kind of drug and the amount of devastation it does to you, your body, and ALL the people around you. Suffering from a broken heart??? We all go through this kind of pain and we all grow up and realize that the world is much bigger place and there’s a million other people out there worth meeting. Sorry your hurt but grow the hell up!!! Stop saying such stupid shit!!
I agree with RC.
But I also want to put out there that I’ve been fortunate in my life to love and have been loved by several people. The didn’t work out, for one reason or another (relationship-wise, of course my loving family is still there) and I’m still thankful for all they’ve taught me. I’m thankful every day for my boyfriend who I love very much, it’s a different feeling than ever before because people are unique, your feelings for them will be unique too.
OP, you need to grow up a bit and realize that maybe you’ve put that first love up on a pedestal that’s only that perfect in your memories. All people are different, and if you relax and stop looking for a “perfect” fix, then you’ll probably find something very special.
And if all else fails, surround yourself with the love of your family and friends. If they’re true, they’ll always be there for you – and their love is something that people need as well, without really knowing it.
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I think OP was not being serious that it’s harder to live with a broken heart than heroin addiction. A poet will say he would move the stars for someone, NOT REALLY what he means.
It’s a paragraph that has a lot of personal meaning, if you look at it literally it’s going to come off as he’s a bit much yes. Give him a break, and you’ll see a lot of really amazing things in this, and that he probably already has learned much from it.
Besides, this is a LOVE not a BITCH.
I’ll agree that OP is very poetic…but some things hit home a little and make you want to slap someone for being so dramatic … It’s like saying you wish you had cancer instead of suffering from a broken heart…do you know how many people out there are battling cancer and would gladly switch places with the person and take the broken heart and just be grateful for their health.
You want poetry… ‘Tis better to have loved and lost, Than never to have loved at all’. OP be grateful that you have loved….and that you have your health….and your whole life ahead of you to love again.
Well the difference between love and heroin is no one warns you to stay off the love. We don’t have a heroin day. We don’t have recovery centers for the lovelorn. With love, if your not out there trying to score a fix, people think there is something wrong with you. Love is legal…well, most love is = p
There is a difference between wanting poetry and making some.
It doesn’t have to be taken as a way to discredit the struggles of heroine addicts but as a way to further emphasize his point. I don’t think it’s fair to censor the way people express themselves because some of the same words were used in a situation you’ve had. They may have hit home with you, but that was not the point and if you look past that you can accept it for what it is.
I’m playing a little devil’s advocate today, work is slow, don’t take it personally anonymous! but please keep it up, I appreciate passion for or against me.
“give me a lesser sentence like heroin addiction” – In OP’s own words he is saying that struggling with heroin addiction would be a lesser sentence then a broken heart…..so yes Mr. Devil’s advocate…the OP is not relating the heartbreak to the drug addiction but is actually coming right out and saying that dealing with love is harder then dealing with heroin. Has the OP ever done heroin? How does he even have any knowledge to compare the 2? And let’s be honest…it’s just as easy to find temporary “love” on the street as it to find heroine…..because that’s what it is….a temporary fix. Hell you can find love online without even leaving your home….not true love…not the kind he’s looking for…but a “temporary fix”.
I’m not trying to censor him…just was a little heated and expressed my opinion at the time. I don’t even think I read the whole post before commenting…truth be told.
I forgot he said the “lesser sentence” bit, I can see why it would trouble you.
My lunchtime talk was very “art” and expression oriented so I saw a lot of poetry in everything I read since. Playing less of a role, I do think OP should take a deep breath and maybe consider how much he’s exaggerating it comparatively, not only will it do a job of not offending anyone but let himself be able to see it for what it is. What “it really is” is something he’ll figure out himself
And the champion is “Real Chick”……aaaaahhhhhh (loud applause by the crowd)…lol. You wanted to be the devil’s advocate…you could have given song examples and many artistic examples….also you could have fought on the fact that people truly suffer from “love addiction” where they are treated as addicts…and there addictions usually result in depression and drug addictions (which I would have countered back and so on and so forth). Slow battle though…..what a crappy day!
(Also someone extremely important in my life passed a few years ago when they lost their battle …. so it’s hard for me to see this artistically….but the song Hotel California….now that is an amazing artistic example of addition).
I have a really hard time reciting examples for some reason. And I never heard of people being treated as an addict for love reasons; interesting.
I wanted to keep going but I realized very quickly it was not the best topic to cause shit in, I was in over my head. It made it hard to really advocate much.
I could see myself as a recovering love addict, which could explain my increase in drug and alcohol intake over the last year. Now trying to balance myself without the need for drugs or ladies’ love.
Crappy rainy day indeed, but at least it was warmer. My bones needed that. The newest love “Jazz” is fitting: rain and jazz go so well together.
It’s been fun Mr Aliar….hope you enjoy the rain and have an awesome weekend!! chat soon.
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Weekend was incredible. Hope the best for you RC / everyone