Ok, I’m to blame, walked in “eyes wide open”, and I do bitch at myself. I fell in love with a junkie. She is really an amazing person…on one level. It’s the other levels, baby. I want to help, which turns out to be romantic BS where this level of addiction is concerned, but still my heart beats for you. Damn you heart!
But what has drawn this particular bitch (insight), is the death of your father. It obviously affected you deeply, I was there to be the proverbial shoulder to cry on, in spite of the mistrust of men in “vulnerable moments”. Willing to be misinterpreted. And I also happen to be in possession of a herbal alternative to methadone. Yes there is not only an alternative, but it is herbal, legal, cheap and effective. Has been used for centuries to give relief to opium addicts. It’s called Kratom. Legal in Canada, but not readily available in Halifax. Had to mail order. Bottom line is, you didn’t need to use on that day, which you in fact used as an excuse to use more. You declared “feelings” for me the day before, then when needed the next day, I was in the other room. I wanted to help, offered my time, my resources (Kratom) and what I could of my love. I hate to say it, but all I saw was your true colours. Heartless, and in the grip of an addiction that will kill you. I’d love for you to call and say “I get it” regardless of any blocks…but doubt it will ever happen. And that is my biggest bitch! —Fantastic Plastic Lover
This article appears in May 17-23, 2012.
sounds rough dude…
I’m guessing prescription pills, which can be a bitch.
Take your heart and nail it to a lamp post because that’s all you’re gonna get with a fucking junkie.
Possible side effects from long term use include anorexia and weight loss, insomnia, and DEPENDENCE.
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Mitragyna_spe…
OB…its a tough row to hoe !
As someone who’s been there, as you presently are…there is nothing else you can do. Chances are you are going to lose out, most people who support a loved one in this situation fail, I did. But she could eventually hit rock bottom and then come to the realization & eventually make it out. But trust me on this, there is absolutely nothing you can do to change the situation & no matter what happens you are in no way at fault. She has to want out & without that commitment of wanting out you will be used.
So try to remember
Don’t forget to Take Care of yourself.
an addict of any kind is, was and always will be one. cut your losses and head the fuck away. the only good addict, is the sex addict, if you get one, keep them. oh, by the way, here i is ladies.
I’m with LS on this one. Abandon ship!
Best of luck, lover of plastic extraordinaire. You’ve found her one true love at the moment. It will take an incredible amount patience and energy to overcome this obstacle and forge some sort of relationship with this woman. No one could blame you for walking away.
dude sounds like a plastic ono song.
Call the crisis hotline and get the nuthouse to bring her in for detox if she’s really a danger to herself. This ain’t just a little weed we’re talkin about here, sounds like she’s into some heavy shit.
yeah, cause it’s totally secure there…
not like they give out day passes to the nutjobs or anything…
You would know. Get back in there asshole. You got anger issues.
I see Zed as having a quiet disdain for most things, not really anger issues.. It’s not like he flips out calling men and thin people assholes anytime someone says something to him.
I just see so much in this ‘modern’ world and wonder…
how did it really get this bad?
what is it all going to look like a further 10 years down the road?
do I really want to be around to witness that?
sometimes I wonder…
OB, you’ll have to decide for yourself how you want to proceed. Don’t drive yourself crazy in the hopes that maybe she’ll come around. Don’t stick around past the point where you stop loving her. Don’t leave if your only reason is to force her to get help.
My point is this – you didn’t cause her addiction, you can’t control her addiction, you can’t cure it. You can offer compassion if it’s in you still to offer it, but decide what the payoff is for you by sticking around vs. leaving. In the end, you’re the only human being you live with 24/7.
Eggs, zed, pretty boy whatever your name is – you started with me pal. You don’t like women or somethin, then you must be a cock-sucker
blah blah blah….grrrrr…. *slobber*….
me no_fool… me no makes sense.
*hork… patooey*
you is dum… dum dee derp dum.
http://img.gawkerassets.com/img/17ayhi5kst…
mornin zed http://3.bp.blogspot.com/_eJsSTWB-WAQ/SFzl…
what a great pic to start what is otherwise another dreary day.
“…do you mark me well I have told you that I am nervous: so I am. And now at the dead hour of the night, amid the dreadful silence of that old house, so strange a noise as this excited me to uncontrollable terror.”
rawk “the telltale heart”
http://johnlconnors.files.wordpress.com/20…
brilliant, too bad about the new movie. i like john cusack but it just looks really bad. poe would have loathed it, now this one was funny http://3.bp.blogspot.com/-PIPoqFmbQPk/TpB0…
It’s been updated, with an “urban” twist
http://cdnimg.visualizeus.com/thumbs/36/2d…
how can you go wrong with Vincent Price?
I concur, I’d much rather see the latter.