Why whenever I get so close to achieving a dream, I freak out and back away from it? Why instead of living life, I’m so hopelessly impaled on it? Why can’t I stay rooted in reality without living in this dream world? I have everything going for me, but I’m so afraid that it won’t turn out perfect that I’d rather throw it all away! For christ’s sake, I could wind up making six figures and instead I’m headed down the path of becoming a poor deckhand! Somebody fucking help me! —Giving Up!
This article appears in Mar 4-10, 2010.
sounds like you’re afraid to fail.
ummmm..stop being a fucktard and looking for help in the Bitch thread?
you obviously DON’T have everything going for you.
giving up, making six figures is okay, if you have a life to use it on. everyone, at some point in their lives get the lonlies or feel that they have done nothing to look at. we are each and all individual,and as such, we all have our own hangups. but keep on looking for that lining in the clouds, be it silver or whatever. people read me on here and have dilusions of me being a disgruntled fed up old fuck stick. far from it, while i do have age on my other side, i have been around and have seen a lot of bullshit come and go. your problem, if you wanna call it that, is very minor, compared to the state of this old earth, put yourself in her shoes a minute. everyday, she is raped, robbed, and has a lot of nasty shit done to her. sure, she complains with a blowup once in awhile, but the time comes, she will just stop being there for us all. deep yeah, maybe, but think on it, if it was you in person, you would either kill yourself, or someone else. but keep your dreams o.p., if even they are the only things that make you, you.
oh yes, and as elvis the pelvis once sang” you gotta follow that dream where ever it may lead you”. get the drift.
nothing wrong with deckhands op…someone has to stay on deck to battle those gales
You can do it, OP! I believe in you!
Feel better?
Anyway, I’m pretty much in the same boat (haha boat… cause you’re going to be a deckhand, hahaha, but I guess I’m technically not in the same boat, but anyway, this stream of conciousness has gone on long enough already). Yeah, kind of shitty eh, if only we had some more motivation. Ahh well, what can we do? Besides get off our asses or something.
i know your dilemma in spades; it’s not fear of failure; it’s fear of success. Anytime i would get on a roll of success be it career;relationship;or even socially i would subconscienly ef it up. in my case it was installed by my father always deriding any positives in my earlier years. therapy has helped but it’s going to be a life-long mission; good luck though i think it can be done
Sebastian, you are a fucking moron.
The anonymity of the Internet allows you to suggest suicide to someone. Try saying that, even jokingly, to someone you love who has a mental illness.
You are sick.