Fate forced me back into this goddamn shit hole of human garbage. My hatred of this place and the people here is only reaffirmed every day. None of you dumb fucks can even define the word “Ego”, “Enlightenment” or any of your other bullshit New Age hippie crap; yet you spit this shit at me every day. Fuck your positive thinking; some of us are clinically depressed you fucking assholes; we are STUCK LIKE THIS. Some how in a matter of two months of being back here; I’ve become SO FUCKING DEPRESSED I’m not even painting any more and sit in my apartment all day staring at the ceiling; this moment of anger is one of the few moments of motivation and inspiration I have any more; other than to roll another cigarette. And fuck you pigs too; I can’t even go out for a goddamn walk in this city without some fucktard cop rolling up on me and giving me the Grand Inquisition. I hope the natural gas pipe lines under this city explode, and the entire hellish place is swept into the ocean by a giant wave of piss and fire. I was born here; but I have never felt so unwelcomed in an area. Fuck all of you, fucking fucks. —I hate all of you
This article appears in Aug 7-13, 2014.
Haha WOW! You HATE this place, all those capital letters you used make that rather apparant. Could you please make an account and explain what ego and enlightenment mean, my hick brain can figure out this but i can’t google because i’m into too much new age hippie crap and that’s not google!
I’m soooooo sorry I’m the reason you stare at the celing and being the reason you are SO FUCKING DEPRESSED, i don’t think i’ve even done that to an ex-gf. Since when can’t you paint!? we don’t have enough pictures of seagulls around here, some more might do us good. THEN… instead of staring at the celing you can line your celing with seagull pictures………… YAY!!!!
Anyhow this made my day and made me smile, your misery is my pleasure, THANKS OP
Halifax isn’t the problem, OP. Pick up a mirror and look at the real culprit.
If life hands you lemons, make lemonade.
What would it take to force you back out of here?
LEAVE BRITTNEY ALONE
So Fate took a gun to your head and forced you to come to Halifax. Boy I’d love to see what that looks like.
Ummm… maybe if you address the depression, things might look a little different?
Mind you, as a dumb fuck, I don’t want to make it seem that my ego is getting in the way by offering you suggestions on how you might enlighten yourself to alternate possibilities (such as making lemonade – thanks TT!).
It isn’t the city …. it is you! You and you alone have the power to move beyond what holds you back. You are probably depressed because you stay in your apartment all day staring at the ceiling. Most of us would go bonkers with your attitude so suck it up, go outside, meet some people, enjoy the sunshine and get yourself laid real quick ….. do ya a world of good!
I know a gal who binges on bags of junk food from the grocery store. She gets a sore stomach from it sometimes and has put on a ton of weight. She blames the store because they put the crap on sale and, well what can she do, she is forced to buy it.
OB, you need to focus on one thing: what can you do to improve your situation? …. and stop blaming everyone else in the world for your failures and frustrations.
Also, if you are clinically depressed, and not just a pathological malcontent, you need to seek help. It’s nothing to trifle with.
I’m with OP.
Obviously.
Though I’m not quite sure how a painter can afford rent and food for 2 months with no income. That to me == mind blown. That would be enough cash to move yet again somewhere actually fruitful.
“Artist” = little pisspot with a can of spray paint leaving his squiggle on other people’s stuff?
Perhaps you need to taste a little pepper spray and hear the clank of iron. Remember, next time the “pigs” are “rolling up on you” – flash some gang signs so they know you’re not to be trifled with.
so o.p., tell us how you really feel aboot us. and please, don’t hold back.
Shades of the former Kappa contributor, non?
Wahhhhhhhh!!!!
The longer you stay on the path of anger and blame the longer the path back to happiness is. Instead of blaming the world… look inward and blame yourself. I know many kind and wonderful people who deal with depression in a healthy manner. It starts with taking care of yourself.
Clinical depression won’t go away by getting out of one’s apartment or thinking positively because it’s a physiological illness at its core and most clinically depressed people don’t choose to be depressed – they can’t help it!
That being said, your depression isn’t Halifax’s fault, OB – it’s your body’s inability to regulate certain chemicals in your brain, so fuck off to fuckedy off land with your little blame game.
if the good men and women of law enforcement are questioning you then i’m sure they have a perfectly good reason too!
sure… he was just out for a walk down the street…
http://www.cnn.com/2014/08/11/justice/mich…
The following suggestions might help you:
1. Get a job – nobody can make a living as an artist here, you ain’t picasso and this ain’t paris. Get a regular day-job.
2. Take a bath and put on a decent outfit and some deodorant. If cops are stopping you just walkin down the street, maybe you look like you are up to no good. Burn that hoodie, shave the fuzz face and wash your azz. Buy a suit at the value village and shine your shoes. Bleach the nicotine stains off your fingers from rolling them butt smokes all day. When you look good, you feel better.
4. Exercise more – exercise creates endorphins which make you happy.
5. Sign up for anger management classes and focus on the positive people, places and things in life (not bitch boards, this place is a breeding ground for haters & negativity).
6. Find a better way to channel your anger. Try slam dancing to this song in your shitpit apartment. It always works for me!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8-r-V0uK4u0
I don’t understand how someone can be “forced” to live in Halifax, or any other city they don’t want to live in.
What “forced” you back here? What “forces” you stay? The job market? The huge salaries? The easy money? The streets paved with gold? None of those things?
You know there ARE places were there are bigger art communities, and there are ALSO places where there are more jobs and better pay. But oh, poor OB, you “can’t” go to any of those places, because you were “forced” to move here.
Sorry, I just don’t get it. If you were talking about being in a city you didn’t like, but couldn’t leave because the money was good, that would make sense. But being “forced” to live in NS? Doesn’t make any sense.
Angel, did it ever occur to you that some people lose their jobs and must return to live with their parents? Most jobs don’t pay livable wages these days and if they do you’ll be let go as soon as it’s convenient. It’s not that hard to fathom. Not everyone has trust funds or cushy government jobs or pensions to fall back on.