I was thinking last night; and maybe it was the pot, maybe it was him, maybe it was that 4 a.m. is not when you should be thinking, but should be sleeping; but the following occurred with acute visuals to boot…
Everyone, almost everyone, has gone so insane and the world has gotten so fucked up, it’s imperceptible; because so many have gone this insane…
The last few years, during all the crazy shit happening people keep saying: “Think positive.” then smiling, a smile that after I think about it enough, kind of looks crooked, and insane; eyes that are not smiling so much as barely hiding the bat shit crazy being suppressed by the positive thinking…
The most keen moment of this happened during the start of the summer and perfectly describes and encapsulates the rediculousness that has become the “Think Positive” train…
I stood in the old crazy German man’s house, screaming about how fucked up everything was at that moment; the moment after my kitten got grabbed by his dog and shaken about till his rear leg dislocated; and he was dropped in a foot deep of swamp water; the moment now, which he curled into me; his leg hanging loose, my trying to keep it still; but not hurt it further at the same time; losing my fucking shit…
He and his lady just keep saying to “Think positive” and giving me the smile… “Think positive, think positive, you have to think positive that it isn’t so bad!”
This, my friends; is why “Think Positive” is bullshit and why everyone needs to cut that shit out…
While they kept insisting I think positive, I had to literally scream and shout them down, in order to get people moving, to get the cat to the emergency room to get his leg put back on, since I have no idea how to do that (Note to self: Learn to competently fix broken limbs.)…
AND YOU WANT TO KNOW WHAT GOT US INTO THAT SITUATION TO START WITH?
THINKING POSITIVE THAT THE CRAZY OLD MAN INSISTING I COME TO HIS DEATH TRAP INDUSTRIAL WASTE LAND WOULD LEAD TO GREAT AND WONDERFUL THINGS LIKE HE PROMISED SUCH AS OWNING A BIT OF LAND…
Cost me:
2 cats, 1 boat, 1 painting worked on for three years, everything that is background noise ‘dreams and goals’ in life, led to the shittiest summer ever; and 3000+ dollars in vet bills.

THANKS POSITIVE THINKING, I OWE YOU ONE. —Disequilibriumized

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  1. this was brutal to read, op, you are not a literary giant. please stop trying to sound like one. limit yourself to sentences of 5 words.

    apart from that, i stuck with it enough to figure out ( i think) what this was all about.

    you moved in with some old couple in hope of working for some land of your own. his dog almost killed your cat and the idiots’ responses were to glibly say ‘think positive’. is that about right?

    sounds like a good reason to ‘lose your shit’. but it doesn’t mean the idea of thinking positively is bad.
    how is your cat? what happened to the two that this summer ‘cost you’?
    did you have any misgivings at all before you moved out there?

  2. As it happens. I agree with you. People are hiding behind a facade of positive thinking so they don’t have to confront reality.

  3. Well pedophiles, thieves, and polititions all start off with positive thinking, it just comes down to a matter of context.
    Those posters are just trying to keep you from being depressed, please don’t ever think a picture of a puppy/kitten along with a “keep smiling” quote was a good life lesson, they were made to keep depressed office workers doing work and the whole thing snowballed from there.
    Life can suck and you gotta take the good with the bad, there’s always something that can be worse. You can always say “well fuck, least I don’t have lupus”.
    In this one case it seems that there was more bad, welcome to real life.

  4. You don’t ‘HAVE’ to take the good with the bad…
    just realize that goals in life are usually unattainable and thus not worth any comparative effort.
    Give up.
    Give up and you will be “not as depressed as if you had tried and failed miserably.”
    Always expect the worst and you shan’t be disappointed… for disappointment was already there in the onset.
    Life for a scant, lucky few is wondrous… they are out living the dream!
    You … you are not lucky. You have no dream. You merely exist until eventually you do not.
    Simple. Miserable and simple.

  5. WILLIAM JAMES AND ALL THAT

    Um, I think you’ll find that the correct rendering is “stream of consciousness.” It originated, as did so much else, with the American psychologist William James, noted as the founder of pragmatism. But I won’t ask you what is to be understood by “pragmatism.”

    Now you must seek out an empty park bench, sit down, and eat your sandwiches.

    A pleasure as always.

    Cheerio!

  6. I’m with BDM – read this bitch last night after I got home from a few drinks and couldn’t understand WTF OB was talking about.

  7. So sorry Mr. Montreal, just a case of the Not Enough Coffees. So glad you caught my error and offered the correction.

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