“If you are unafraid to tell your person that you love them, then what is it that you are waiting for?”
I am not afraid to tell you how I feel. I am afraid of being hurt again, on the chance you are playing me for a fool. Twice I dreamt of an us, twice but you turned me away, in a fairly violent manner, breaking my heart. If you feel the same you know how to contact me. For you, I leapt twice trying to prove to you my feelings for you are genuine. This time, I’m trying to convince you to make the leap in my direction. That’s if you dare to dream with me? —I Will Be Your Little Chickadee
This article appears in Sep 13-19, 2012.


Hey chickadee:) I’m not sure if this post is actually directed at me, or just my question (I.e., so your person knows more about how you feel). But if you are speaking directly to me then note that I am really not sure if I am who you think I am…..but I might be (smilarities in recent situations and feelings). IF we are who you and I both think we are, then please know that I DO love you, but I really felt like it was you who played me for a fool, and that really hurt me. It takes a lot for me to fall for someone and I really fell for you, only to find you always seemed to suddenly have another interest when we would start to enjoy hanging out. There is nothing I would love more than to reconnect with you, even if we get together to just chat and hang–figure out why the feelings we seemed to share were so scary, and make the hurt we dealt one another (however unintentional) go away…heal the wounds together you know…re-approaching you is difficult, as the last time we connected you seemed to do so just to drop me (ouch!). I felt that you were telling me to get out of your life, so I did.
If you, Chickadee, are my person, then A) these details should make who I am clear to you, and B) understand I know you have a very busy life right now with lots of important stuff going on, and I never wanted to disrupt that balance if you were unsure about me…..I have dreamed of us too, and I have made the leap to you very clearly at least twice. You live in my head–rent free, and you have since I looked into your eyes that rainy friday afternoon.
Chickadee, whether we know each other or not, I hope things work out for both of us—it seems to me that we both deserve that. And if you are not speaking directly to me/ are the person with whom I am totally smitten, thank you for giving me the opportunity to put this energy into the universe–it helps me move forward without sending confusing vibes in my persons’ direction, and for that I am grateful:)
Here’s to better days ahead for all of us!
“Twice I dreamt of an us”
*in my best Sean Connery voice*
I think they accidentally hit the space button there…
I too dream of anus.
Hey Zed:P lol!! Making me giggle again:D. I TOTALLY missed that! Super funny call dude!
SheSang Though call,I suppose OP could be speaking directly to you and/or answering your question.You did say in earlier comments that your a female didn’t you?…If OP is talking to you, you seem pretty sure that it was your heart that was broken.OP Did say she(?) “tried” to ask her love out twice but was shot down twice.If you are the person she(?) is talking to it sounds to me like your fucking with her head.To me if she asked you out twice but you turned her away twice it should have been obvious to you she was in to you not someone else. Unless there was another important reason you told her(?) “no”?…She tried twice I think if you still care it’s your turn to tell OP.OP seems to still feel the same.If there was another reason you turned her away, that reason is why she(?) won’t return to you to try again.Lord knows what being turned down twice affected her broken heart?
Thanks for your thoughts Boru (really), but you have my personal scenario wrong. If OP is the guy I love, then OP will know what I am talking about. For the record, Boru, it has never been my style to dick anyone around–honesty and kindness are at the core of my being–always have been. I hate seeing anyone hurt. I do appreciate you taking the time to write and respond to me though–thanks girl:). Have a beautiful day!
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@Chickadee–if you think we are who we want each other to be, and you can somehow let me know (in a secret agent way of course:)) on this blog, PLEASE DO–I WILL contact you. If not, then I will probably not make my personal leap, even though I want to, because the guy I am smitten with has dealt with enough confusing emotions (I believe on both our parts) and the last thing I want to do is hurt him, or screw up his life in any way. And if we aren’t who we want each other to be then good luck–know that I am rootin’ for ya:)
SheSang Hello,I thought you would pick up on my post…You were always able to read me.
I miss you
Your Chickadee
Chickadee! 😀 You just made my heart sing (after it skipped a million beats:))!!!! I miss you too (like crazy!) and will be in touch very soon!
Yours Always;)
SheSang XO
@Chickadee: PS I love you:)
XO
SheSang
Awwww!
what’s your avatar, critter man? looks like it’s underwater
It looks like an elephant trunk or an octopus tenticle to me. ?
Paingirl, I think it’s a water worm–probably ocean as opposed to fresh water, but I could be wrong.
Troodon …could it be a leech? What is it?
Girls … it’s a pacific lamprey …
http://science.nationalgeographic.com/wall…
SheSang … damn this made me smile … I really hope it works out for you. 🙂
Good luck, SheSang!
And Chickadee… well played.
Hey Persevere, Cpt. Corp., and Troodon :D. I reconnected with my Chickadee this morning, and my heart skipped another gazillion beats when he responded and was happy to reconnect too!! I am feeling super happy–thanks for the sweet words of encouragement, I really appreciate them…and Troodon, thanks for the blush–i am still enjoying it;)…………..I would love a little advice from you guys though–my Chickadee says he is not this online Chickadee. Should I submit a post to LTWWL for online Chickadee, so he knows what’s up (e.g., that we actually weren’t each others’ peeps)–it seems only right to do so. I hate to think of someone waiting for the connect I promised, now knowing they thought I was someone else. Persevere, Cpt. Corp., and Troodon, I am certain I should let online Chickadee know, just not sure if I should do it on the board or in the comment section of this Love–you opinions would be greatly appreciated:)
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@Persevere: thanks for solving the lamprey mystery for us, and for the link:)
Screw ’em…. let him long in the futile hope of emotional purgatory.
Home, where I learned the truth about despair, as will you. There’s a reason why Halifax is the worst hell on earth… Hope. Every man who has ventured here over the centuries has looked up to the light and imagined climbing to freedom. So easy… So simple… And like shipwrecked men turning to sea water from uncontrollable thirst, many have died trying. I learned here that there can be no true despair without hope.
Zed–what’s goin on? So, you think I should leave it because now online Chickadee has hope instead of despair? Is that what guys would prefer?…………seriously, I personally prefer honesty, but I really wanna know what the Zedster thinks! And I am sending huge firey balls of positive energy to you man, all the way from the big city (TO), then again, that shouldn’t surprise you;)
again… Bane… as the wise man said, there can be no despair without hope.
If you grant him hope, he will learn despair… you’ll torture his mind… poison his soul…
As for what guys want, I am not in any way reflective of the average male so I have no idea. I do think he’s wise enough to come back on here and check… and see the mix-up.
If he isn’t, he deserves despair for giving up so easily.
Sweet, smart Zed:). Thank you for the good advice:). I think you are right…..and I would NEVER think of you as ‘average’;). Hope Halifax is not too gnarly today! Have a good one……………..and if ya get cranky, just have a listen to The Immigrant Song–excellent AND hilarious…..Xena and Cleo 2525 are also good remedies for cranky, seriously:P
Persevere Thanks for solving the mystery.
SheSang I’m happy that you and your Chickadee did reconnect.I hope it works out for the two of you.
zZz I loved your words to SheSang,you always have a such a great way of conveying what you want to say.Your not like a lot of other guy’s out there…you aren’t afraid to leave your tender belly open for the world to see.I feel that’s very refreshing to see,I applaud you for that….
You are one of a kind man,around here anyway.
The prize goes to Persevere who correctly identified the creature in question as the Pacific lamprey. This guy gives new meaning to “there’s a sucker born every minute”.
Again maybe I am slow on the uptake here Shesang. You happened to reconnect with your chickadee after the imposter chickadee posted on here. Maybe the imposter is somebody who knows the real chickadee and wanted you guys to connect. After all, they did go by Chickadee1 implying there were more chickadees. Then again maybe I’m completely out to lunch. I am happy for you though, it’s great when these things work.
The Universe works in mysterious ways, SheSang. I guess you two were just destined to speak again. I think this Chickadee1 will read your comments here, or might be in the same position you’re currently in; reconnecting with the person they wrote the Love for. One can only hope
Hey Troodon and Cpt. Corp.:). Thank you both so much for getting back to me–I am with you two and Zed, the other Chickadee does seem smart enough to come here and check to see what’s up. And, Troodon, I agree with you–perhaps Chickadee and Chickadee1 are friends trying to help each other out. I did note the slight difference in the moniker, but the comment to me seemed genuine and the details strikingly similar, so I made the leap and I am so glad I did:). Troodon, if YOU are ‘slow on the uptake’, then I don’t think we would be able to see your ‘fast uptake’ with the naked eye alone:P. And if you are out to lunch, then so am I– but what an awesome lunch!!!!
Cpt. Corp. I love our mysterious universe, and I do think my Chickadee and I were meant to reconnect– up until yesterday I was super sad, thinking that he would just be a beautiful memory. I really hope that you are also right and that the other Chickadee is happily reconnecting with their person too. If I could bottle and give away just a fraction of how great I feel since reconnecting with my little Chickadee, I could change the entire world for the better forever:P. I am quite lovedrunk today–no apologies:P
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@Persevere: I need to revisit my old bio txts–I read lamprey and knew you were right, but I always confuse the idea of lamprey with the idea of stingray (just a syntax thing, I think:P)…..it took me a few minutes for the word ‘eel’ to hit me, then I laughed heartily at myself–‘water worm’…..hahaha, too many X-Files episodes for me, methinks;). I hope Troodon has a really cool prize for you, or at least buys you a beer–perhaps he could take you out to lunch for some eel;)
@Boru: thank you for the well wishes. I hope life is treating you sweetly today:)
@Chickadee/Chickadee1: whoever you are you have my eternal thanks–a continuous stream of high fives and positive energy are winding their way from me to you–hope you catch them all!! Most of all, I hope you find/have found your person to reconnect with–you DESERVE it!!! All the best and many, many thanks to you, you sweet person who is unafraid to go out on a limb for love:). A true heart, yours–I hope love has found you:)
All the best, to all the BEST, for now:)
SheWhoIsSingingAgain:)
@SheSang I’m glad everything worked out for you.Unfortunatly for me,my search for love continues…I thought you were my love but My Love is a male.My heart skipped a million beats when I read what I thought was a comment to me from my guy;then my heart sunk into an abyss of despair when I realized it wasn’t for me.
I am glad that your happy with the person you love. Today was a sad sad day for me.He knows how to contact me when he’s ready to make the leap. I miss you.I love you 🙂
Chickadee1, thanks for writing–i am really sorry to hear how sad you are, and that you were unable to make the reconnect you sought. For what it’s worth, I DO think you have a true heart, and if you stay true to your self and heart, love will find you–where, when, and from whom you may least expect it.
Before I met my love I had been through quite a lot and I really didn’t believe I would find anyone that would make my heart sing again, but I did–it was a total surprise, I wasn’t looking for love, or even in the headspace to do so; but love most definitely found me. It took a while, but I felt so happy that it made what were once long, lonely times seem miniscule and worth it….my love wasn’t quite ready for me at the time, and I found myself thrown into despair when he pulled away from me. And then my father died. It has been an extermely painful year. Grief,on any level, really sucks–especially when you are alone.
Chickadee1, I hope your pain is sweetly relieved very soon. I found that spending time with my friends who truly love me and are honest with me (even when it hurts) really helped me feel like it would somehow be ok. I also found that putting positive energy into myself and trying also to send positive energy outward to others helped me to feel better-I felt closer to being a whole person than I did when I just thought about my personal losses and the pain that would accompany them. But that can be a struggle too–some days we just feel down or angry or both–when that happens try to get yourself back to the positivity, but forgive yourself if you don’t, and don’t ever beat yourself up for any reason.
I don’t know you, Chickadee1, but I will send positive vibes your way. I hope that your broken heart mends quickly, and that true love finds its way to you in the most wonderful of ways. You seem like a lovely person. Good luck to you Chickadee1, and keep your chin up.
Take care,
SheSang
Wow SheSang, so much positive energy and love in one person. You just made my morning.
I think one of those love vibes you’re throwing out bumped into my coffee on it’s way by. Tastes great! 😀
SheSang Hopefully some of that positivety will rub off on me too.I’ve been needing an extra dose or two lately.
It’s refreshing to see someone can care about a perfect stranger these days.
SheSang congrats on your extra dose of happiness.
SheSang,
why don’t you help out both Chickadees and really spread the love?
😉
giggidy giggidy goo
Hey everyone:). Thanks for all of your sweet responses, and for keeping the positivity flowing! It is always nice when like attracts like that way!
@Cpt.Corp.: so glad to have helped start your day with a smile and make your morning extra nice! Will keep on sending and, who knows, maybe your coffee will just keep tasting better and better!! Mine keeps getting better too…you’re right, it must be the good vibes–will keep ’em flowing!!
@Boru: thank you for your sweet words and for being happy for me, even when you are sad! I will be sure to keep sending positivity your way, but I am sure that the vibes will keep finding you with that kind of a nice attitude–and you won’t have to lift a finger!!
@Zed: oh I will keep enough love flowing to help both Chickadees—but I will be saving the extra super-gooey stuff for My Chickadee, ‘cuz he’s my one ‘n only, my little chickadee;). Giggidy giggidy goo to you too;P
Thanks for being such a great group to chat with. I always enjoyed reading your comments, everyone, and I am super happy to be part of the comment crew! Hope the day is treating you all like the cosmic coolcats you are!
Hugs all around:)
SheSang
PS
Just headed into the ROM to catch the dinosaur exhibit….tell Troodon I’ll look for him;)
X/SS
SheSang What is the ROM? I know I’m stupid.
SheSang If I paused to think…Royal Ontario Museum.
Hope you have fun.I love museums,I’m jealous.
Boru–you ARE NOT stupid…..don’t ever call yourself that girl!! And you were right, of course!! The museum was a blast! I heart dinosaurs:). Even bought myself a little pteradactyl (sp?) necklace, to remind me that old birds are tres cool–thought I’d try taking Zed’s advice, and stop taking the age thing so seriously;P. Have a great week end!
SheSang:)
SheSang You don’t know me but your still nice to me?It would be nice to have someone like you in my corner(in my corner NOT on my corner.lol)rooting for me.Thanks,I appreciate your kindness. You have a good weekend too,girl.
Glad you had a great time at the museum SheSang. I love museums myself particular dinosaurs. Phillip Currie, who works out of that museum is a famous paleontologist specializing in the theropods (bipedal meat-eaters).
i love museums too, the only reason i want to go to new york. i was at the louvre…wanted to get locked in for a week
Hey Troodon:). Thanks for the heads-up on Phil Currie! I had no idea who he was until you mentioned him, so I looked him up online:). I am sorry to say that I am not in TO long enough to attend any of the public lectures (this seems to be the only sunday without one:()…but when I am back on my big comp I am going to check out some of his articles:). I love dinousaurs as much as I love cosmology (and I am absolutely fascinated with cosmology–trying to wrap my head around string theory and brane theory right now!)!! I am a big kid in a lot of ways, but I like it like that:P
The dinousaur exhibit was AMAZING!!!! I took some very cool pics, and I was awestruck by the cast of tyrranosaurus rex–my personal fave since childhood!! There were some REAL skulls and bones, as well as some fossils—so cool! And the info presented was really well done! I only had about 3 hrs, but like Paingirl and the Louvre, ya coulda locked me in all week and it still wouldn’t be enough!!!
Hope you are having a really great weekend Troodon, and thanks again for pointing me in the direction of Phillip Currie! Next time I head to TO (I go every 3-6 mos) I will check the ROM lecture schedule beforehand!! This was my first trip to the ROM, but it won’t be my last:)
🙂
SheSangAboutDinosaursToo;) lol!!
SheSang I’m glad you had a blast at the ROM and I hope you had a good time in TO.Paingirl, the Louvre is a place I have near the top of my bucket list.unfortunately I will kick the bucket before I leave Halifax again. It’s always nice to dream though.
Hey Boru:). Thanks! TO is an awesome city……I would love to visit the louvre too (I’ve never even been across the sea…but someday though…) I sure hope you get to Paris and all its gems LONG before you buy the farm–so much so that I will add that thought to the positive energy flow I am sending out to you girl:). As the Grateful Dead would say, “keep on truckin'”:)
Btw Boru, LOVE the new avatar! The old one was cool too!!:)
Lol,thanks.It’s been a very long time since I danced on a table.
SheSang I’d love to travel to Great Britian…my decendants are from Eng.,Ire.,Scot..Something on my bucket list is rafting.I think that would be so cool,it looks like a lot of fun.
no effing way I’m missing this exhibit…
http://www.starwarsidentities.com/
Hey guys–happy tuesday:). Am headed home from TO this afternoon…..I’m gonna miss my friends and the city, but gotta get home to my kitty army, my puppy, and my little place;P. Hope the week is treating you guys well:)
Boru, I’d love to go to GB too. I really have no idea where I’d start in the UK–probably Wales, though, because the countryside is supposed to be gorgeous and I think it would be fun to try to learn a little Welsh….the name of the country also reminds me of one of my other favorite things on the planet….whales!!:D. Lol…..seriously though, I’d love to go there, as well as ireland, scotland, and britain….so many cool places to see and experience!!!!
Zed!!!!!!!!!!!travelling Star Wars exhibit!!!!!!!!! I am really excited! I am both a Trek fan and a Star Wars fan! I even still have my copy of the Star Wars novel I got when I was a kid, right after my nana (bless her soul) took me to see the movie–i was a geek, but I adored my nana even moreso for taking me. I still remember getting superexcited when the MF took off into hyperspace foe the first time–i turned to my nan to say how cool it was, but she was asleep (I thought she was dead for a split second!)!!!lol! She taught me a lot about the art of giving—i still remember that day quite clearly and fondly, and the hyperspace moment always makes me laugh:P. Thanks for the link Zed–i imagine this will coincide with Hal-con, and I am definitely going to try to make that this year! Will definitely try and get to the Star Wars exhibit too;P Space stuff turns me into an excitable puppy–i may even still have my old K-Mart glow-in-the-dark light sabre!!!!:P
Off to pack–4pm flight…..have a great day guys!!Good vibes on the way Boru:) And nice to hear ya Zedster–missed ya! Thought of you when I was at Kensington Market last week–i came across an old fat army green bike that had a side car (I dream of those things–LOVE sidecar….I can probably thank Hogan’s Heroes and a bevy of old war movies for that!!)….sorry I wasn’t able to get a pic for you:P
okay, say hi to the boy he lives in toronto *giggle*
awwww… now I want a sidecar.
No, it’s not coming here for hal-con, it’ll be on the west coast around that time.
My birthday coincides closely with hal-con so I’m always aware of what’s going down around that time and when.
Sadly, I’ll be away to see the exhibit instead at the expense of missing hal-con this year.
Yea,you know that guy that lives in TO?That guy who lives in TO, is my cousin from Newfoundland and Lab.. Lol
There’s someone for everyone?
You just haven’t been looking in all the right places…
http://us.cnn.com/2012/09/21/us/ohio-woman…
it happens even when you’re outside the country, boru. “oh you’re from canada, do you know so and so” i want to say “second biggest country in the world, bitch” tho one tenth the population of the us
I have some friends who saw that exhibit in Montreal as a precursor to Montreal Comic Con about a week or two ago, Zed. It seemed really cool.
can’t wait!
sure sounds like a good way to spend a wicked saturday…
Zed When is your birthday and how old will you be?
That does sound like a blast,doing something you really enjoy on a special day like your bday.
@Zed: lucky bastard! (Read in MY best sean connery voice;)). Wish I could check that exhibit out with ya! Seeing as that isn’t gonna happen, put me at the top of the list for a ride in that sidecar (if you ever get one;)). Sidecar…..the dream of the road warrior (after, of course, the last of the great V8s!!)
Hope your upcoming bday is fun:P
“Zed When is your birthday and how old will you be?”
HA! And zed says no one wants to get into his panties!
<3 boru!
man panties… and nope.
PK,Zed. Zed, I can get into your “man panties”.They might be a little big on me but,I CAN get into them.Lol
http://static.fjcdn.com/pictures/not+sure+…
Zed Sorry but I don’t understand.
I hope I didn’t insult you in any way.I’m ALWAYS putting my foot in my mouth.My being socially retarted is usually mistaken for rudeness or some assume I don’t like them.
I prefer the older term, ‘mantyhose’…just a thought;)