So you and I are doing a dance Grim Reaper. Every chemo treatment – a ballet, every moment of nausea – a tango. Just know that I am the most unwilling partner you will ever face. I will NOT gently fade, I will NOT quietly retreat.

I have had a gut full of your damned nonsense and it will stop. I see you laughing at me in the mirror when I look at my thinning hair, my fading body. I am no one’s fool and while you may think you have me, you don’t.

Not yet. I am simply not willing to go.

—In it to win it

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  1. OP, I don’t know how this is going to shake out for you, but you’ve already won.
    Best of luck and happiness to you and those who love you.

  2. Beat the ever loving snot out of cancer like me, never give up. Stay strong, cancer doesn’t like fighters.

  3. Your attitude is certainly a good one. Half the battle to defeating that insidious disease.

  4. SHIT HAPPENS

    “I am no one’s fool and while you may think you have me, you don’t. Not yet. I am not willing to go.” In it to win it

    It doesn’t matter what you may think or don’t think or what you are willing to do or not to do. You must reconcile yourself to the brute fat that shit happens. “Que Sera, Sera,” as the old song goes. I know whereof I speak.

    A pleasure as always.

    Cheerio!

  5. If you live, you get what you want (weirdly)….
    if you don’t, you’re spared from this decrepit, horrific existence, constant struggle, and pain at every turn.

    win/win.

  6. RSVP

    : The Dribbling Half-Wit (03/04, 10:07AM)

    New Avatar Alert! Here’s your answer to your “win/win”.

    A pleasure as always.

    Cheerio!

  7. RSVP

    : Dinner for Ivan (03/04, 12:04PM)

    “Dobby the KGB elf”?

    You’re right! Lacking context – I’ve never, nor ever intend to, read J.k. Rowling – so what we have here is just another lousy photoshop alert! Bah, humbug!

    A pleasure as always.

    Cheerio!

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